&& a happy new year

Twinkles New Years Resolutions

1. go to hooters ONCE a month oorrr once every two weeks HEHE (wish me luck)

2. go to the gym every other day

3. lose my temper

4. spend more time with my mom & dad

5. dont sweat the small stuff

6. save my money

maybe ill think of more later..

for those who are inquiring to know, i have quit smoking for about 2 months now? yay me! thanks to the boyfriend. he keeps me on check and reminds me how much trouble i got in the last time i smoked. HAHA. jk.

if i learned anything at all this year, its to appreciate everything and never take the little things for granted. to be more open minded and not to take criticism so lightly.

the boyfriend taught me a lot and really changed me for the better. although i have to admit that theres still some small kinks i have to fix but altogether, im doing a lot better. i acknowledge my faults and my mistakes and ive learned to suck in my pride and apologize for the things i say or for the way i act sometimes. i know i can sometimes come off rude, or even a bitch. i guess sometimes the inner mean girl in me comes out. but beneath it all, i do have a heart. haha.

so for those in the year 2008 that ive hurt in some way, im truthfully sorry. i cant go back and fix what has been already damaged, all i can do is move forward and hope i dont do it again.

for the dear friend ive lost, jeffrey lorenzo pascua. youre still in my heart, in my mind, & in my thoughts. i miss you more each day. i cant believe how fast time has gone and in exactly

5 days, it will be one year. one year since the tragic accident. one year since i heard my heart drop to my stomach. 365 days of not being able to hear your voice, see your name on my phone, accept a comment on my myspace. i wont be there for the prayer but do know im planning on seeing you on monday. i know youve looked down on me and seen the changes thats happen within a few months. youre probably even dissapointed in me. im dissapointed in myself. but im just glad to know that if you were still here, your friendship with me wouldve never died but wouldve only got stronger. i love you.

goodbye 2008, hello 2009.