i want a brighter day..

twinkles fun fact of the day: A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes.



i woke up today not knowing that my day was going to make me feel like complete shitola. i blame it on the weather. i always blame the weather. but really, when its gloomy like this it makes me want to just lock myself in the room that i dont have, crawl in a fetal position under a blanket and just hide until i feel better. lately ive been listening to a lot of islander songs. after brotha joes friends performed on saturday i realized how much i miss that kind of music. how much that music makes me happy when im not feeling too good. islander music is so much different from the music you usually hear. their words are strong. listening to it makes me miss hawaii more than ever.



then i realized, i know what hobby i want to pick up. i used to take tahitian/hula back in my younger days and that was probably the only thing i enjoyed that kept me fit. so, im going back to it. i miss the practices, the dances, the performing, the dressing up in cute costumes. i miss it all. at one point in my life, that was my passion. something i looked forward to every week.

so ive been trying to decide what car i might go for this year if i end up getting a job. i narrowed my choices down to:

1. civic coupe
2. 2009 toyota corolla
3. 2008 toyota scion tc

and its weird because i think god is trying to tell me something, ive been seeing hondas EVERYWHERE! any kind. you name it, i saw it on the road at least 8 times today. so ive decided, honda civic coupe it is.



its nothing compared to my future mercedes c 300

but itll do. i think anything will be good compared to the little engine that cant. hahahaha. ;P







yowza.

my rascals.

brother joes friends. i like them. theyre good.

ps. rest in peace jr leano. 5 years today

interview with the vampire

twinkles fun fact of the day: "Almost" is the longest commonly used word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order.

i had my first job interview in almost a year? yes, its that time my butt gets up and stops being lazy to go and chase some paper. i had an interview today for this hotel in mission beach. now a lot of times pictures can decieve so when i had checked out their website i didnt think too much of it. as soon as i get there all i could think was, "holy sh&$, did i just step into hawaii?" it was absolutely BEAUTIFUL. the lady was nice and i think my interview went pretty well. one thing though, if i DO get the job that means bye bye lip ring. i guess its time to retire it seeing as that most jobs dont allow you with any kind of face piercing. the sacrifices im willing to make to get paid so i can get a new cizzar. she took me on a tour around the spa and oh my goodness, i was breathless. it was just all so nice and fancy shmancy. i hope i get hired and i hope i stay there for a good amount of time..

so good news bloggers, the renters found a new place to live! so i heard. lets hope it stays that way because if thats the case, that means i get to move back home next week. I HOPE I HOPE I HOPE! hieps house is getting way too hot to be hanging out there and if i remember correctly i know that my room downstairs is SO much cooler because no kind of sun hits the inside. besides, all of hieps (and mine now too) friends live on montcliff, spring oak, grove view, etc. all pretty much by my house. so if at montcliff we wont have to worry about, "well, its a 30 minute drive down and back just to sit around and stare at each other." hah! exciting. AND, i get to be neighbors with my best again! how ive missed her sooooo.

i just read a couple of my sisters emails. besides blogging email is pretty much the only way we get our sister time bonding. i know i see my eldest a lot because my names practically written on her couch for now but its hard to get a word in with katelyn every 2 minutes, "mom, mom, mom" or jacob crying and whining cause he wants to be fed (hehe), or desiree just being desiree. with my other sister we BARELY see her because shes so busy with work and books. my bro in law joe had asked my sister, "why dont you guys just call each other." its not as easy as it sounds. HAH. thank god for internet though, otherwise we'd be spending a lot of money on stamps because we 'd probably rather write to each other than have the confusing conversation of 3 way.

summers almost here and i MUST and i mean, i MUST learn how to swim. hiep keeps saying he'll teach me. maybe i should just give in and let him give it a whirl. its funny how my bro in law al says that my sisters and i are like cats, cant get anywhere NEAR water if its not a bathtub or shower. i still remember a couple summers ago when noriza and i had went to soak city with my sisters and the kids and i almost DROWNED in 4ft of water. yeah you heard me 4 feet. ok well i didnt REALLY drown. i fell back in the water and couldnt get up. all i could hear was norizas voice, "JUST STAND UP!" i was terrified after that. never went to a water park again. HAHA. this year is going to be different. especially if the hiepsta and i are planning on taking a trip to hawaii during his vacation in september. how is it going to look with him all willy nilly at the beach and im standing there where the water is only hitting my ankles. no fun!

at a random note:

if any of you folks are looking for some theatre entertainment i highly suggest you watch babyb mama. amy pohler is HILLARIOUS!

heres some sk pictures. since hotmail is so slow i figured id do a couple pictures each blog entry. enjoy!

hiepsta in deep sleep when im dying of heat in the morning



it was HIS choice to take this picture, not mine....and that is why hes my boyfriend. haha <3

jacob boy lookin like a g. haha.

---- edited @ 12.57 am, because im bored out of my mind and totally cant go to sleep.

so to continue on with my day, aubrey and i were bored so he offered to pick me up for a little starbizzle catchup. back in the days..before living at my sisters, before murrieta..back when i lived in a little home behind a gated community by telegraph there stood a little area with a nice cozy fireplace next to a starbucks, jamba juice, & panda express. a place id go when i needed to get away, study, or just chill and have a smoke with a couple buddies. bree, danny, and ricky were my eastlake pals. the guys that would hang out with me because theyd be just as bored as i was. the guys who continued on to be my friends even after the twinkle & dante break up. bree calls me a flaker even though i always meet up with him when he askes me to. hah! we spent a good 2 hours drinking some coffee and having a couple smokes talking about people we've bumped into, who we're with now, reminiscing on the days when i lived in the apartments where EVERYONE would always hang out at. the apartment that left the door open in case someone had no where to go were always welcome to come and jus watch tv and have a beer with whoever was in the house. 

now im back at my sisters. wide awake from the coffee. trying to figure out what i can look at online. im running out of things to check out and theres no one online that i really want to chat with besides my cousin. i didnt see hiepsta all day. i miss him. i know right, boohoo. =(

Oooh whoa ho those summer nights..

twinkles fun fact of the day: one hundred thousand contains the letter A, but none of the words from one to one hundred ninety nine have an a.



i hate how i get when it comes to weather. i complain im sweaty when its hot i and i complain im freezing when its cold. why cant it just be hold or cot. its especially hot when i wake up every morning at hieps house. holy tamole! i dont let him get anywhere near me because i dont want to sweat of more body heat.

i havent been writing in here because honestly, i havent been doing much. haha. the days havent been as exciting as they used to be. maybe because everyones all coupled up now and we're all stuck in our "just wanna be with our bf" phase. who knows. dont get me wrong! its not like my life is boring because to me, it isnt. i have fun just being at hieps house cracking jokes that at least i think are funny. haha. but to my viewers here in blog world..it may not be a ball in the park.

ive been messing up on all my analogies lately...

instead of "smart alec" i said "wise alec"
instead of " killing two birds with a stone" i said "hitting two stones with one rock"

and so forth..
the boyfriend finds it somewhat amusing, i end up feeling dumb. haha.

i want to move back to montcliff. i miss my house! my room! my bed! my pillows! WAH WAH WAH WAH WAH!!!! those tenants are really starting to get on my nerves. i wish i could tell them off but i know doing that will just give them more reason to want to stay longer. patience is the key right? PFT, i seem to be losing a lot patience that i used to have. THANKS HIEP. HAHA, jk. its not that i hate living at my sisters. if anything, my sisters is a fun place to be at with the kids there to amuse me all the time. its just, her house is really meant for just her family..not the partridge or the brady bunch gang.

i was looking at my sk and i found SO many pictures that i have never sent or uploaded. hotmail takes forever to get my emails but here is a too cute picture..




jacobs only smiling because i had food in front of him. haha! but check out the cracker i stuck on his chest.




kates drawing of whats supposed to be hiep and i.

el oh el oh el...el oh vee eeh

everyone has their first love correct?

i remember my first real boyfriend. i say REAL because i dont count these so called "relationships" i had in hs or jr high. in fact, a lot of the guys in hs were just guys i dated. they were never formally called "boyfriend" and its not like we ever hung out OUTSIDE of school. haha! anyway, my first boyfriend. dante raphael concepcion jr. a lot of people didnt understand why him and i broke up. thats because they never saw us when we fought. things arent always as they seem i guess you can say. our fights were always indoors but when we'd go out to hang out with people we were always so casual. after a while we were just pretending like we were the same happy couple we were in the beginning. dante and i were so alike in so many ways it was almost scary. there wasnt anything wrong with him. he never treated me bad. he never made me feel less of a person. he knew how to make me laugh. he was the first and probably the last guy whod cry in front of me. i remember it like it was yesterday, my family and i had went to vegas for his birthday and we fought about something..i cant remember now but i just remember leaving the room to get some coffee and when i came back to the room he was gone. i went outside of the hotel and found him sitting on a bench smoking. i sat next to him and it was quiet for a while. i finally look over and i see a tear run down his face. now guys who think they shouldnt cry in front of a girl is not a guy. then i said, "why are you crying?" and at first he denies it then finally he says, "because i dont want you to leave me." haha. so i mean, we had our ups and we definitely had our downs. it was until towards the end of our first year when things really started to get bad. i have really bad insecurity issues. i kept thinking over and over, "why is a guy this good with someone like me for this long? hes GOT to be doing something wrong." then more and more did that thought keep overpowering me. i slowly became more and more insecure to the point where our fights were everyday. it didnt help that he was sneaking in texts from random girls, then he started lying and saying he was "just with the guys" then id find out hed be with these "guys" along with a bunch of "these girls". now that i think of it, if i hadnt been so insecure in the first place then maybe he wouldnt have to sneak texts or say he wasnt with girls. if i had just been trusting in the first place, it wouldnt have blown up the way it did.

so now ive come to this final thought, was i ever in love with dante? because isnt love about trusting that person and not letting your insecurities get the best of you? shouldnt love be about honesty and communication? something in which i obviously didnt see towards the end of our relationship. what would you call it?

sleepless in san diego

twinkles fun fact of the day: A snail can sleep for 3 years.



so since ive been sleeping at hieps house for the past couple of days ive been noticing that my sleeping pattern is SO off. hiep sleeps at about 3-4 o clock in the morning with naps at about 11 to 12 o clock at night. i know i dont have to sleep at the time he sleeps but thats how it pretty much ends up because we watch tv, i eat, we talk that sorta thing. so i finally sleep at my sisters house last night. its about 130am and im trying to fall asleep. nope, i end up watching tv. so i think, "maybe the tv is distracting me from falling asleep." which i know is bs because hiep sleeps with the tv on. i turn off the tv and im just laying there with my eyes wide open. i try to think of things to make me fall asleep but nope, i end up going into depth with my own thoughts. its now 230am and im getting irritated because im still so darn awake. i thought, "ok if by 3 o clock if im still awake im just going to have to take some drastic measures". it finally hit 3. i get up and go through my bag for that benedryl i used to put me to sleep when i was having a massive allergy attack. i took it and whatta ya know, knocked out within 15 minutes. in fact, i dont even remember falling asleep. that benedryl is one hella of a drug. i dont know if its..

1. i dont like sleeping on couches
2. the fact that hieps not next to me
3. that im just plain used to sleeping at 4 in the morning

whatever the reason may be, it needs to end HERE! haha. i just cant wait to move back to montcliff where i can lay in my bed again. oh how i miss it.


anyway,

the boyfriends birthday is coming up in exactly 3 days. YAY! hes turning the big 22. he sits there and complains about turning 22..........uh HELLO!!? he tries to use the excuse, "but babe...men die at a younger age than woman." then i pulled a fasty and said, "UHM..NO..you never know WHEN exactly you'll die..who knows, I can die tomorrow." and he says, "true." hahah! oh my. as for what we're doing on his birthday. all i know is, he wants to go to rileys on friday. OH MAN. my birthday at rileys, was all a big blur. when its 3 dollar drinks people make sure they get you as many shots as they can. i have no idea what hes planning on doing for his bday. im planning a nice afternoon but once night hits, the possibilities are endless. Hah.



some food for your thoughts..


"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as"making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. "
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

back in the days when i was young im not a kid anymore

twinkles fun fact of the day: Al Gore and Tommy Lee Jones were once roommates.



chyoz.

i had a pretty awesome weekend. consisted of some fun in the sun, food, food, food, friends, more food, and a lot of qt with the bf. life is good.

the weather was outrageous! my armpits havent sweat so much in so long. but i guess i dont have it as bad as some people..






as soon as i woke up i wanted to jump in a pool of ice water. hiep and i could NOT stay in his room all day. we got dressed and left to go out. went to north county fair since that malls so airconditioned. checked out the pet store. i want a beagle so bad!!





how can you NOT want one!!!


we watched the ruins right after at edwards cinema. i hate hate HATE how the seats there are so uncomfortable!! i might as well be sitting on a pile of rocks. the ruins, let me tell you..is SUCH a grotesque movie. i couldnt even watch the whole thing without wanting to gag. but hey, for all you people who love that kind of stuff, that movie is TOTALLY for you.

afterwards we ate at pat & oscars. good amount of food for the price of 20 bucks. as we were eating hiep pointed out these little kids passing by the window as we said to each other "man, i wish i were still that young." now i know im not OLD OLD but i sure as hell am not 16. oh how i loved the jr high/high school days!! i got home from hieps house and decided to take a stroll down memory lane..



















and remember when she looked like this,




on another note.. i want my hair like this again..





ahhh, one day. goodnight all. :)

happy jabbafriday!

twinkles fun fact of the day: Barbies full name is Barbara Millicent Roberts

so, have i mentioned to you guys that my goddaughter is SUCH the diva? haha. it cracks me up. this afternoon i was sitting at my sisters kitchen table eating with my goddaughter sitting at the end of the table eating her soup when she says, "um, i need more soup"..as if the cup o noodles were on a table that was 10 feet tall. so my dad being the nice guy that he is rushes to kate and gives her more soup. i laugh as i keep eating my food. then she says, "um..its too hot". so my dad blows on it. she sits quietly eating her soup. im on the computer and my dads sitting on the couch when i hear, "um, i need someone to blow this again because its still too hot." my dad gets up, walks to where shes sitting and continues to blow on her soup. the things grandpas/grandmas will do for their grandchildren. if that were me, my dad wouldve said "youre a big girl you know how to blow on your soup". haha. my nieces & my nephews DO have that face where you just want to jump on their every command because ill admit there are times when i bend over and back for katelyn. what can i say? i love that girl.

while we're on the topic of katelyn..

i also think its so hilarious how she tries to change the subject when it comes to taking naps/eating/baths. the other day i bought panda express for el familia. im putting my food on my plate when i see katelyn practically salivating over my noodles and fried rice. i ask her, "do you want ninang to make you a plate also?" she says, "yes please." and runs off to go play with her toys. so i go over get her a plate and make her own batch. i call out, "katelyn, come eat now your food is on the table." her reply, "wait, i have to drive somewhere first". 10 minutes later. "so katelyn are you gona eat the food i got you?" her reply, "um...hold on i still have to draw something." haha. i gave up after that.

its not only the things she says to me but the things my sisters or my mom tells me. i swear shes a good entertainer.


i think its crazy how much alike me and my niece desiree are though. its pretty much to the T. it scares me. i know im not a bad child but i REALLY hope she doesnt end up like me. HAHA. however, i can already see it forming..the borrowing of my clothes, the exact hair-do's, the smart remarks. haha. i remember this one day she asked me to write down the alphabet and whatta you know, she writes like me too. HAHa. YIKES! most people would hate it, i find it flattering. the one thing im most proud of that i can say des definintely didnt get from me is her academic grades. 3 b's and 3 a's. wowza! im very impressed. i hope she doesnt let her social life drag her down. thats one mistake i made back when i was going to school. it was always, FRIENDS, FRIENDS, FRIENDS. studying? whats that? haha. i gotta give props to the parents though. i really wish my parents were hard on me when it came to me and homework. i dont blame my parents because i know if i really tried i wouldve been able to do a lot better than i did but i notice that when desiree starts to mind wander her parents get her back in check. i guess you can say, i needed a lot of reality checks in hs that i wish i gotten. or maybe i did and just never listened? haha.


all right, time to pick up my mini me. ill write more later..i still have a lot to talk about!

cut my nose off...

twinkles fun fact of the day: Bruce Lee was so fast that they actually had to slow film down so you could see his moves.

yes. this is the 3rd time this year that ive been sick. HOW UNFORTUNATE! if its one thing i hate the most, its being sick. the runny nose, the stuffy nose, the watery eyes, the phlegm, the congested chest, the coughing, the sneezing, the aching body, the restless nights if i dont have my nyquil in my system. UGH I HATE IT ALL!!!! im here in hieps room trying to hold back my cough and let me tell you, it is NOT easy.

anywhoo,

i never got to talk about opening day. it was a very awesome night. despite the fact that it was SUPER freezing (hence, why i probably got sick). the hot dogs & garlic fries were very well spent.


here are some photos..



before the big game..



me and lai representin!




padre fun



mi amore




arite. i think i should take nyquil cause my nose is buggin. goodnight!